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I think I’ve cut more while he’s gone than I have ever cut in the past five years .___.

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I’m going on a fast. Any tips or suggestions? 

A few cuts, a mixed drink, and some good music. Tonight is good. 

Thank you. <3

Reblog if you have ever thought about ending your life. I have to tell every one of you something. 

inh4le-exhale:

No matter how many notes this gets. <3

So many times…

asdfghjk <3 

• Me: -is in a bad mood;
• Bestie: I know, I know. :| this is why I am giving you a virtual hug.
• Me: -wraps arms around;
• Bestie: What's wrong baby girl? <3
• Me: Did I tell you my bf is in jail?
• Bestie: No, why.
•  -gives explanation;
• Me: I can't see him until June 2013. He's been there since January 1st. I love him, legit love. I've dated others. I never gave up my virginity to anyone. But when I got with him? I felt something strong. I gave in, and we've been together for a long time now. Almost a year. And I- Nevermind.
• Bestie: No, keep going. You can tell me anything babes.
• Me: I used to self injure, back when I was abused by my ex. I have done it for about 5 years. And, I relapsed recently. And I don't know. I get really bad depression. I have meds, but they aren't doing much. I told the doctor, she hasn't done anything. I feel alone. Idk
• Bestie: Urm, I have money. I have lots of money, If you need me to be there for you I will be there. I don't care for anything, I will be there for you love.
• Me: Thanks, /: I just don't know. A lot of my friends have given up on me. Ever since I dropped out. I am getting my ged, and I have no school or anything now. /: I am so bored. Nobody is hiring, I've applied everywhere.
• Bestie: I will leave school for you, I promise you that whenever I am out of school I will come and get you. Before June 2013, And we will see your boyfriend together. We will see him and we will get him out. I'm not giving up on you babe. You're my best friend, Nothing works without you. <3
• Me: You just made me smile and cry at the same time. dfghjkl -wraps arms around her waist; I love you. <3
• Bestie: I love you too, I promise I will. It'll be the first thing on my list I will save up for you.
•   It'll work out I promise, You are basically the only one who understands me. I can't loose you, Your my best friend, My wife, My Arizona Tea, I knew since the first day I met you. You were going to be something different, you are perfect in everyway. I love you so much. <3
• Bestie: I wanted to let you know that you mean the world to me, That I wouldn't be here without you. You are that something good I still have in my life, You are beautiful inside and out and I can't believe that you and I are still friends from losing connection and then returning together it's pretty amazing. I'm glad I have you as a friend, when I say nothing works without you I mean it. I lose my mind without you, I need you. I need you to be strong because I know you are, I know inside you are the most strongest person I know. You've made your choices and some people didn't like them but truly I like everything you do, Hell I love everything I about you. I mean it when I say I love you that I can't think right without you. Sometimes, I text you just to make sure you are okay and I don't know whenever you get your phone back you'll have a lot to read from me. I can't loose you, I just can't I don't know what I would do. I wonder what it would be like if we never met, I don't know my life would be shit. I love you so much. You know you have me whenever you need me? I know I am never on at the bad times but I will listen to you scream and yell and kick because I wasn't here but I'll take care of you I promise, I will love. I'm your best friend and that's why I am here for. To tell you everything is going to be okay, even though you know it isn't I will be that shoulder you neeed, that person you need to get your anger out. I'll be there, sooner or later I will be there just for you. I promise. You. Are. The. Most. Beautiful. Women. I have ever met. Don't forget it. <3
•   I love you.
•  Thank you, honey. <3

damnthatswhatshesaid:

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My boyfriend…used to make this for me every morning <3

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Thank you! <3

KSO, 

I was on Oovoo with my two best friends, and one of their friends was invited in. This girl, who I don’t know, is skinny. Pretty. Beautiful. It was awkward for me. And I just kind of…well lost it. In my mind, I was fighting with myself. To stay strong, and keep up with the good talk. I couldn’t even do that. I can’t talk to skinny people, because all I think about is what they are thinking. “She’s fat. Why is she even here. Omg, look at her hair. Look at her face…What the hell.” I HATE myself. I think…I need to punish myself again. Back to zero, I go. /: 

lizaluvzyu:

OMG.

DYING OVER HERE.

I CAN’T EVEN…OMG. 

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All I want to do is write, but I have no idea where to post it. Other than here… xD 

I’m going to start running everyday when my mom’s at work. So, Wednesday is running day.  

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. This should be in the tumblr laws. When you see it, REBLOG IT. 

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Mariah | 16 | Bisexual |Single
I like girls, boys, sex, music, blood on the dancefloor, Sleeping with Sirens, dogs, hamsters, and hot topic.
I do not promote self harm or any eating disorders.

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